how to mend myself?

i am not alcoholic
i am not smoking
i am faithful to my husband
i eat fruits and cornflakes - i avoid junk food
i dont like to go out to pubs and discos
i cry when i am hurt
i love my mother
i love my inlaws as my parents
i call a spade a spade

I am in love with myself :P I am so nice!!! I love yu donna. (I am hugging myself)

The fall out

My heart crawled a long way
No time to rest
No time to sleep
It was weary and near to dead
I pulled it over thorns
I pulled it through forests
I pulled it through pebbles and I pulled it through the desert
My heart asked me "Can I rest? I am weary and near to dead"
I said "No my dear heart, we have more to travel!"
My heart said "I am tired; travel alone friend - I don't think I can make it"
Saying this, my heart bursted into tears..
I sobbed with my dear friend becos she was in pain.
I had to pluck my heart out of me and throw my emotions one by one
My heart consoled me saying "don't worry! you will become strong"
"Now that I am out you, you will bear the pains with a grace
you will bear the scornful with indifference
you will bear the evil words with a smile"
"My absence will make you strong"
I said "But..how will I survive without you?"
My heart replied "Your emotions are for those who love you unconditionally"
"God has gifted you the best of friends who will hug you tight when the hard wind blows"
"Those who scorn you tears just dont want your loving heart"
"So let go of me my friend, its time to fall out of emotions... I want you to be strong when the hurricane strikes you"
I looked into the void darkness
The journey ahead was just emptiness
I parted with my heart in great pain
I extripated my emotions with great despair
My heart told me "See me in your friends, your mother, even your enemies - they will give me to you when you are in need"

Good bye friend! Good bye emotions! Am never giving you for those who don't need you. I am falling out with happiness - I am falling out of pain

I can't stop loving my company

I joined my company 1.5 years back
Friendly atmosphere (in my mind, I thought - for how long? but my company proved it wrong) - it was an amazing experience
Amazing training sessions; the trainers are real intellects
Managers who never scold
You say poor jokes and still you get a fun card for being a morale booster
Work should go on time with quality - doesnt matter if you faff around
You wake up one morning and you have a bad cold- you can work from home, avoiding the commute
Stiving toward excellence
Leaving no loop holes to progress
Appreciation on time
A pantry stocked with yummy biscuits, snacks; tea and coffee can be made whenever you want to have some
Team meeting at Cafe-coffee day
Fun activities which are real fun
Open house - where you can directly address your concerns to the CEO
You don't have to explain when yu take leave

What else you want?

Serendipity 5

Loving unconditonally - Sounds easy; try it for every relationship you want to invest in. It may not have great returns at times but anyway you were not expecting any returns right? So continue loving.

Serendipity 4

Apologise when yu are wrong - its right :D

Serendipity 3

If the bread crumbles when yu cut it using a knife. Heat the knife and then go ahead to get the clean slices.

Serendipity 2

Invest in your relationship with your in laws - Its always wrong to keep them away

pavid

I stare at the stars
I stare at myself

madness, blankness and just pain

A pain that squishes my soul
A fear that makes me feel pavid

Ebullient I am still
Its all about me
Yeah...its all about me

I realised I never have to build a place to stay in voidness
My heart yells and screams - I can hear it breaking into a thousand puzzles

I can't put them together as i lost some pieces

I wonder about what I am up to next

Am I depressed - no I am not
I am a silly whiner with my body intact

I dont have to crawl
I dont have to beg
I dont have thousand boils all over me
I am not crippled

I dont know if I lost myself

I dont know what I did to myself

I dont know if I sold my soul

I dont know if I forgot God's mercy

In a pile of dirt, I lie helpless

Burdens weigh me like huge chains

My arms are weary

I am thirsty and hunger makes me blind

I am whining again for no reason

Save me God - Pull me out of this dirty heap